cheers... to coffee..

Delirium has its own way... it sets in and sets you up... you are sucked into an incongruous and inescapable feeling of floating in some spatial discontinuity... your minds numbed your souls free...thoughts are so clear and yet unthinkably you are confused about the pertinence of these very fragments serendipitous and inconceivable cognition thats a result of a well thought out path to destroy the very core of id that has kept you alive till date... so you drift away into a cocooned existence... back to the world where nothing meets the bourgeois existence you so very much are used to... so what do you do... you wish to be back again... you brew another cup and drink up... and float again...for caffeine aint an addiction... its a way of life...

Weekmend...

I need something to do over the weekend... for far 2 long i have been planning stuff out and seeing it not mature... heard people tell me it aint possible or what not... and very rarely does it so happen that theres some stray call thats akin to a coffee invite... so well i need an indulgence... and after long debate and discussion within... i have zeroed in on the following options... now there was a lot of debate and deliberation and many an argument to get here... now what follows is not to be ignored or not paid attention to... this demands attention and opinon... so the options thus are...

1. Guitar... have tried my hand at it... and i suck at it... cuse it needs patience... co-ordination and a sense of music... not i have them all but none quite enough to get my act right... had i given it more time and effort when i had the time... i cudda been good... but its never too late for nothing...

2. Dance... this is the one thing that has till now let me down... i might win the intra seth dance off... but nothing beyond... at wedding and all i end up being the guy who tells the dj what to play or getting the drinks and all... and about time i steped up to the floor with a purpose rather than a slouched nothing of an effort... 

3. Swim.. I aint heading to the beach anytime soon... and this aint something that will keep me busy for the better part of the weekend but atleast i would finally get beyond drowning... which sucks ass... and is certainly not good enough to look at... you flap ur arms like a moron...make tons of effort to sink like a stone... how bad is that???

4. Bike... Now i dont have one in gurgaon.. and neither i the kinds who would drive to leh on whim and a prayer... but i love the fellng of sitting on a saddle wiht the breeze hitting my face (through the helmet ofcourse)... and going places... someplace or the other....again this is not somthing i gould do every weekend... but once or twice a month a drive would feel good... 

5. Social work... now i feel compelled to do somehitng from time to time about the world beyond... but thats just a feeling that fades... if only i could make this a sustainable flame.. a self fuelling thing then it might just be the answer... till then i wud seek somethign else...

6... planning.. i might just plan what to do next weekend... cuse there is always whole lot of nothing to do with whole lot of nobodies around me... till then i will weekmend...